Just Sad

Oh, Brother. Not sure I have words. Just having a REALLY hard night. They're all sad, but tonight I'm consumed with it. I miss you SO much. It's not fair. This is just so unfair. I used to be able to look at your pictures and it would give me comfort to talk to you in them, but now every time I see your photo, I just break down. My heart hurts. What I would give to have you back here with us...

These last few weeks have gotten harder for me. Not sure about everyone else, but for me it hurts more now than ever. We went to Lake Wales this past weekend and I can't help but think of you the entire time we are there. How much you loved it. All your muddy days and nights. Your Jeep. I got your feather on Saturday. Thank you. I also noticed the breeze when I was taking a picture of the tree. I appreciate you visiting. Please don't ever stop.

Tyler asked me at the dinner table one night last week if I was still sad and missed you. I told him of course I do. He said "well then we should drive and get him and bring him home". If only Heaven wasn't so far away. I would do it in a heartbeat. We all miss you. Please continue to watch over us and send us strength. We need it and we need you. Always have and always will.

Love you Forever, Brother. Until we meet again...