Yesterday would have been your 24th Birthday. And, today marks 1 month...1 month that has seemed like an eternity. And, in all this, even though it seems like an eternity, I still can't believe you're gone. The reality is hard. Sometimes unbearable. It helps to cry, but it can't bring you back. I'm still sad. Sad everyday. Even though we tried our best to celebrate you yesterday, it was still not a happy day. We spent the day at the beach, where I think you would have been. We let the kids write messages to you on balloons and then we let them go. Tyler asked if you got your balloons yet. I told him you did. =) We also spread your ashes on the shoreline. So, I know you were there with us. Aaron posted a post on your FB wall about your Birthday dinner in Heaven. It probably was better than Rustic Inn, especially after the service we had at your birthday dinner last year, but I still wish we were at Rustic Inn getting shitty service.
I also got my first tattoo yesterday. For you. On your Birthday. It hurt like hell, but I love it. It means so much to me. Although you are in my heart FOREVER, Steph and I have our own little memorials to you on our feet. Lauren and Mom were there with us. It was special. Eternal love for you, Brother.
Your co-workers did a little memorial for you on the beach last night also. It was a beautiful night. I know you were there with us. I could feel it. Thanks for turning down the wind, so we could light some lanterns in your honor. I hope you had a good Birthday up in Heaven. Miss you terribly.
Love you forever, Brother. Until we meet again...
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